I try to be this vision of a “strong, independent woman” and I constantly feel like a failure because I allow the actions of men to grind me into the dirt. I allow myself to feel stupid, unwanted, not worthy, unattractive and so on.
This whole new dating experience has left me feeling like a shell of the person I used to be. I feel tired and like there’s no one there for me anymore. I also feel stupid for feeling like I have to have a person in my life with me. I don’t know. I have my dogs. That’s all I have.